Found this thanks to the Megumi. Clearly this is a thing that needs to be happening inside my pants.
Last night was so much of what I needed and I didn’t even expect it to be. Bad circumstances convinced me to go out, but I’m so glad I did. I got to spend time with friends, both new and old. I laughed, I shared stories, I got angry, I got excited, I got nervous, I had beer, I had fun, I sang, I had a first kiss, I had frank conversation, I had light, I had love, I had comfort, and I had happiness.
Sometimes you find people in your life who just feel like they fit exactly right in certain moments. Last night, that moment was riding down the highway blaring Against Me and singing along.
Before that, it was getting up the courage to go in for a kiss that I wasn’t sure would be returned. Then it was. And it may have been well after 2am, but my world lit up a little.
I haven’t had something or someone new make me nervous in a while. I almost feel like I stepped into a time machine. I felt the same as summers in high school where I would pick a friend and we would go do whatever we wanted on a whim for the day.
I feel good about this summer. I feel like there will be adventures, hikes, dog parks, flowers, naps in the grass, trees, music, and love.
I never deny that I have an inner hippy. All she wants to do is be happy and love everyone and have it returned. I feel like this year is going to be different. I feel like there’s really potential for the second half of that to work out. I haven’t felt this optimistic in a long time, and I’m thankful for it.